Indigo Girls - What Was Really Me lyrics

I should have never crossed your path Funny how the things you want the most Should soon be taken back Slap my own hands like a child Stealing from the candy store I think I've taken to your smile And I hunger for your laugh Do the craziest things like look around When I know you're nowhere near me Break my back on a song Though I know you're not there to hear it Unanswered questions lying on the coffee table From a song I haven't finished since last summer Because I never could decide how much was gin And how much the sea Or other incidentals clouding what was really me Everything I am is bare feet and burning sand Waiting for the calm cool hand of the sea A madman of emotions waiting for the drug effect Of the reason and the intellect to comfort me Half the time I love you like I love the fall's first breeze And then you seem as distant to me as the skeletons of trees Far away outside my window But inside I think of you As if I thouht hard enough I'd know which way to turn And what to do. I'm quite sure I'll be alright We all live with some distraction It's just too bad mine will hang around All day and night Like an uninvited guest You can't turn away, try hard as you might Lord knows, I've tried I might let it go and take a long long run Quit my job and join the coastline baking in the sun (My tape cuts off here.)