In Her Own Words - I Could've Been lyrics

[Verse 1] You never wanted to see me leave this, I never wanted to stick around. And there's a rainstorm in my head that I just can't outrun right now. [Pre-Chorus] I'm faking smiles and stomachs aches So I can get away. Sometimes I think that I'm the only One who feels this way. [Spoken] The only things holding me back are my own thoughts in my head, And I can't understand why I can't just move on and get pa**ed them. It's probably my own fault, and who's to say I can't fix it? But maybe sometimes life just gets in the way. [Chorus] I thought that with a change of pace, That I could get the hang of this. You're just another something that I can't seem to erase. I thought that with a change of pace, That things would start to feel okay again. I guess I'm never gonna learn, I guess I'm never gonna learn! [Verse 2] I tried to make it to the ending Of a book I never read. I'm relapsing to my old self trying to skip all these steps. [Pre-Chorus] I'm faking smiles and stomach aches When I start to feel trapped. It's hard to breathe. I never thought that I would lie To the ones who stay close to me. [Chorus] I thought that with a change of pace, That I could get the hang of this. You're just another something that I can't seem to erase. I thought that with a change of pace, That things would start to feel okay again. I guess I'm never gonna learn, I guess I'm never gonna learn! [Outro] Could you tell I wasn't honest? (I could've been, I could've been) I couldn't be all that you wanted. Could you tell I wasn't honest? (I could've been, I could've been) I couldn't be all that you wanted.