Imperial Squad - Alter Ego lyrics

When I was young I was a quite kid , hid my pain by smiling , aww he's so cute look at the size of him , little did they see the f**ed up s hit that I was hiding in . Arguing, violence, growing up in a drug environment .my parent though that they could buy my love with presents .. how the f** did i know what crack-c**aine was at the age of 7 ? now you realise your mistake , your trying to change , sorry guys your 20 years too late, you did this to me , your the ones to blame . You ever though about k**ing yourself , slitting your rist or hanging off the end of a belt , I have f**ed up kid but oh well , if suicide' s a sin guess I'll be rotting in hell , and people always asking finni , why you always willing out , shut up b**h what you think I go to smile about ? You think my life's good cause I'm on the telly? Ever wondered why I'm skinny? Cause I'm mum was taking tilli This is the life I live so much pain that i would love to give; only god can judge me... And them other b**hes they can s** my dick (x2) I told my parents keep a memory of me, something like a photo cause I think I'll be the first one to die , well I really hope so , this life is driving me insane , don't worry mum and dad , when you die i hope you R.I.P - rest in pain cause all my life I've been lied to , sometimes I wanna slit some bodies throat sit with them and watch them die too just so they can feel the f**ing inner pain that i do. Does anyone every cry themselves to sleep? I do. You're lucky I aint ended up in prison, for k**ing guys or doing f**ed up sh** like rapping women. Homicide living my life with a drug addiction, so much hate in my heart feels like everyone's a f**ing victim. I just wanna be alone with no ones else around me. Out-cast. No one really understands me. Ahhhhha, I really love my family, but this is how i feel sometimes, understand me? This is the life I live so much pain that i'd love to give; only god can judge me... And them other b**hes they can s** my dick (x2)