Illogic - Lesson On Love lyrics

[Test version. Written while listening to song. Unfinished] Yo. It was a beautiful Thursday, Sun beaming through my window pane Then a strange rush of emotion awoke me Eyes squintin', strain and focus, Then I notice that every blanket or tainted feeling, Feel of my being "like walking on yo yo string" instinct Beckoning me to call my lady to converse But the responses in the tele-talk stopped the choke outline of my heart Plan surprise visit; Get to the door; Listen before I knock. Hear a voice laughing, With yo voice, I wonder who's the visitor. I knock and listen for feet pitter patter To the peep hole; Scatter away, You full _________ to say she's not there. "Now that's rare." I think, But I tell her Ill came by. I could tell the lie was k**ing him through his transparent eyes. Walking away from the domain, My thought plane takes flight. Idea after idea floating cause the happenings don't feel right. So I grab the cell, dial the digits, say "Hello." And she says, "Hi, that was my cousin, I was in the shower when you came by." I was like, "Why'd he say you weren't there?" "I don't know, but where you at?" "I'm going to hit the store for some cigarettes but I'll be back." Ate the dial tone but it still doesn't sit well So I light the tip of my Camel. Then inhale. Back at the crib,_________, she's getting ready to bounce. I'm like, "Where you goin?" "To see my Aunt that just had a kid I told you about." "Cool, how long you gonna be?" "Just an hour. What, you coming back to see me?" She was hoping I'd say no but I said yes to cause some stress. We exchange kisses, "I love you's", she jets and I chill. Cause I can't dismiss this discontentment I feel. Park in a spot,___________, 20 minutes skip on the clock, She comes back, the shock beats my chest, anger fills the rest of me. Regretfully, I go to her door, knock and get no answer. Evil's eating away at my sanity like mind cancer. So I run to her balcony, look in the window and explode. Some cat with his lips touching the beauty that I behold? By this time I lost my sanity, Climbed up on a 6 foot balcony. Love and hate combined by some weird type alchemy. She sees me, stands there shocked and scared. She was frost bitten by the ice grill of my stare. Dude bounces, she tries to explain, make sense of the lies. The pain of my words inflict, burst so hard she starts to cry