Ill Poetic - Instinctive Drowning lyrics

[Hook] You are what you know The problems sink deep to the bottom of your soul And the world doesn't know You're lost in the undertow And those waves come strong Swallowing the water You can't say what's wrong The surface looks calm So the rest of them carry on And you are what you know The problems sink deep to the bottom of your soul And the world doesn't know You're lost in the undertow And those waves come strong Swallowing the water You can't say what's wrong The surface looks calm So the rest of them carry on [Verse 1] I remember when the ambulance came She was unresponsive Dad was screaming her name He tried to give her mouth to mouth Nothing but green fluid she was coughing out The f**ed up thing is we had been there before I was scared the paramedics had her laid on the floor They cut her shirt off And had her chest bare With his hand over her left breast And then compressed there Nothing They put her in the ambulance and took off None of us could talk I think we felt it We had known for years that she was helpless But you can't ever prepare for it Even with the sh** she had been through This was rare for her They airlifted her to the hospital She had pulled through before so it was possible The doctor told us that her brain was dead Seven minutes without oxygen the way it ends Call the priest and have him pray again Maybe God will save her then Almost thirty years of alcohol abuse She died on April 16th Nobody put her in the news Her name was Jody Ann I felt the coldness of her body at the funeral the last time I would hold her hand [Hook] You are what you know know The problems sink deep to the bottom of your soul And the world doesn't know You're lost in the undertow And those waves come strong Swallowing the water You can't say what's wrong The surface looks calm So the rest of them carry on And you are what you know know The problems sink deep to the bottom of your soul And the world doesn't know You're lost in the undertow And those waves come strong Swallowing the water You can't say what's wrong The surface looks calm So the rest of them carry on [Verse 2] You think that I don't see the warning signs d**h by the bottle I'm immortalized On every corner there's a trigger for me A big neon sign saying there's liquor pouring A big neon sign just to remind me of it A big neon sign saying my time is coming Just shy of the age of when her liver failed Most of my money been spent on liquor sales And you can talk about the reasons You can chalk it up to talking to my demons Maybe it's something gone undiagnosed Maybe I'm scared of suicide so I'm dying slow Yeah - Mr. Slow Suicide With his big f**ing heart and regret is in his eyes It's only medicine It's only something to feel better when my head is in A f**ing tailspin and I hate myself When I'm overwhelmed with life And I can't save myself Went from a little to a fifth a day I just wanna go back How did it get this way? I just wanna go back how did it get this way? I'm not f**ing stupid I can't live this way And what would Kath do without me? What would Dad do without me? Look what I would leave behind But I feel like I'm losing my mind I'm a loser I sing the blues I'm not doing too fine The other night I had a dream I'm in a car without a driver, in the pa**enger seat And right behind me was my mother and a child And I smiled She hadn't come to see me in awhile The thing about dreams is nothing is odd We were flying down the Lodge I was thinking about God The mood started to change Looked back and my mother slowly turned to remains The baby was gone and I looked to my right Out the window and they had taken the good in my life And like a movie A car had pulled up next to me Couldn't tell who it was driving the hooptie He pulled up ahead and pulled out a gun I tried yelling But my words wouldn't come He points it at me then I hear from the sky I'm gonna make you famous I'm gonna make you famous I'm gonna make you famous I'm gonna make you famous I'm gonna make you famous I'm gonna make you famous And then came the sh...