Hums - Raindrops lyrics

[Verse 1] I've never had no luck, was unhappy through my whole life Looking back when I was living in that small house, that old house Thin walls, the voices coming through them were so loud Oh God, I can't even describe it, it was so hard My cold heart has gone far, I think I'll never find it And my mind is f**ed up, I'm unable to unwind it A lot of sh** happened, trying not to think about it But it might be, there's something behind this whole chagrin So, I'm rhyming, reminiscing when I was a little kid That mouse was always under my bed, I couldn't get rid of it Just a naive stupid boy, I was always afraid of everything And that's why every single motherf**er would belittle me I am sick of it, and I must admit that I hate myself Just hate this life, please, Lord, I need some help I feel much pain, gimme some strength cause I don't have none I'm falling like those raindrops into my old bedroom [Hook] Cold blood is running through my veins I'm praying that God will ease my pain They say life's a game, but I can't play Cause I can't see no sun, after the rain (2X) [Verse 2] I'm taking it back at the time I was sharing a bed With my brother, every morning I was waking up sad Staring at the mold on the walls, or the muck on the floor I would close all the doors, and get stuck in my home Spend the day talking to God, and reading some books I was trying to find some peace, but I still wasn't good I just wish that I could, deal with some of my problems Maybe, I wouldn't be sitting here, talking to my conscience Trying to write some sh**, and tell a part of my life story Now I have a three story house, but still my life's boring Still noone's calling, no new friends and I'm alone I think the way I've grown is the reason that I'm gone The way that I've been treated makes me wanna k** some people No more broken windows, but my life's still in pieces Never succeeded, cause I never had what I needed I don't have to fight no more, cause I'm already defeated [Hook] Cold blood is running through my veins I'm praying that God will ease my pain They say life's a game, but I can't play Cause I can't see no sun, after the rain (2X)