Hopsin - Pillow Man lyrics

[Verse 1:] I've spent about ten years tryna work on my craft Tryna save this hip-hop sh** and disperse of the trash But all my nerves have just crashed, cause all the verses I've thrashed Were meant to benefit my future, I'm uncertain it has I rarely ever put something out to insert in your dash Cause as soon as I became a brand my own purpose was smashed I'm feelin' nervous in fact, I got no urges to rap I don't think my f**ing life can get more worthless than that I see these n***as blowing up, who never took out the proper game n***as who f**ing s**, Gucci and Wacka Flocka Flame n***as who makin' bucks, someone tell me I'm not insane Cause I feel the urge to run up on a b**h a** n***a then rob his chain Dang! I thought I had it figured out See I panic and I pout, yo I've had it man, I'm out God damn it, this sh**'s a clout I'm the baddest thing no doubt But my madness is about to turn me manic 'til I shout [Hook:] How come the world is always quick to turn they back on me Won't somebody tell me, you can go ahead, and fall asleep I'll be in your dream Maybe I'm the Pillow Man, maybe I'm the Pillow Man I'll be in your dream Maybe I'm the Pillow Man, maybe I'm the Pillow Man I'll be in your dream [Verse 2:] You all a**ume I'm evil, but actually I'm so nice I've always been the lover boy like practically my whole life Unhappy here with no wife, don't ask me I don't know why I'm livin' life without no type of strategy to go by I knew a b**h who I would go pick up when the day starts A b**h who'd even like to watch me skate at the skate park A b**h who I was making out with up in the graveyard The same b**h who went and left my a** with a slayed heart She cut it like an avocado, secretly hittin' clubs and poppin' bottles Hanging with thugs and s**ing lots a co*k yo The biggest s*ut from Loveland Colorado f** a ho that's Hopsin's motto my heart is vacant, you knock it's hollow She met another guy who left a baby stuck inside Her vagina then he just split and messed up her f**in' life Now she hits me up and I say, "Go s** a nut, goodbye" All you s*uts can die for wasting all my sacred love supply [Hook] [Verse 3:] To live a decent life what all is it take I tried and try to be the best but nothing falls in the place And I'm a man but my struggle is gonna cause me to break And just involve me to hate I'm in a nauseous state And sh** it probably is fate but who's in control of it me or God Is he the cause of why am I here the reason's odd I'm broke and need a job, for spending cheese on broads But y'all don't see the flaws I code it up to keep it raw And mc's who's got the most talent in this whole planet Don't ever get recognized when they dope at it So they go back to the block hustlin' and dope addicts Some n***as got the effect and some n***as don't have it Yo I'm at my last years cause everytime I think I'm out the matrix I get s**ed right back in But man I'm hopin' things will change and the soul in me remains Cause the talent that I've got is way too cold to be contained [Bridge:] No, no What did I do to deserve this? No, no I don't even have a purpose No, no What did I do to deserve this? No, no I don't even have a purpose [Hook]