Hendersin - Becoming Me lyrics

I used to wash dishes at Applebee's (making like seven something an hour) Since girls don't like the smell of Mozzarella sticks (before I party I gotta take a shower) And then we getting f**ed up, spending what I just made at work n***a A muthaf**ing shame, hundred dollars to my name but I still made it work n***a Kicked outta school, like a f**ing fool tryna play it cool cause you know that (you did something wrong) Drinking liquor next, tryna call your ex, tryna ask for s** but that love is (love is so far gone) Asking Justin what we doing tonight? Instead of thinking bout the chance I might have ruined my life Might of ruined everything that I worked for I let my family down, that made it hurt more, damn Lonely Nights I stayed awake Don't know how much I can take Will I bend or will I break? yeah When the day does finally come I'll look back on what I've done I can say that I've become yeah, I've become me Fast forward seven years yeah Cried so many of these tears, yeah Embraced so many of my fears I ain't never been religious but I hope that heavens hears So many things keep me awake at night I left some people behind to try to make it right I booked a couple of shows I'm tryna make a flight Looking in the mirror acting happy tryna fake it like Nights that I tried, wishing that I died Said I never cried but a n***a lied (I was so damn wrong) Made a lot of ends, lost a couple friends Text it never send yeah the one that says "What Is going on?" Asking Justin what he doing tonight? He deployed overseas yeah he true in the fight And I'm so close to getting what I worked for I gotta stay focused and just work more damn Lonely Nights I stayed awake Don't know how much I can take Will I bend or will I break? yeah When the day does finally come I'll look back on what I've done I can say that I've become yeah, I've become me Stood there, alone and confused Not really sure what I should do Where I should go The only thing I could hear was a cold pale silence Encompa**ing my heartbeat I knew the sky was blue and the sun was shining My mindset was telling me otherwise What could I think? Everything was fleeting away from my grasp Was I done? Or was this only the beginning?