Hearthsides - Emotional Deprivation lyrics

It hurts with every heartbeat It's k**ing me inside I'm trying to forgive you I'm trying to forget all the things you've done to me I cannot see inside me I don't know who I am I was a small child Full of admiration Full of love for you Full of illusion for what I believed that was okay Take my hand I'm still with you 'Cause when I'm gone it will be too late for giving me your love Look at me now I feel alone, I'm so alone If this has been your plan you have f**ing done it I feel hollow and empty inside I feel so alone It doesn't feel like home I'm so sick of how you make me feel I'm just no one, no one for your eyes I feel so lost Have you ever wanted anything? I can't understand you Maybe this is more than you asked for Was it something I did? Did I do something wrong? I can't sleep anymore I'm still a little boy, but this time full of hatred and sorrow I don't expect words of love, 'cause I'm not ready to feel love right now I don't expect words of love Because I am your failed son Take my hand I'm still with you 'Cause when I'm gone it will be too late for giving me your love Look me in the eyes I feel alone, I'm so alone All this time I've been waiting for a little sign of you Show me how you feel You love me too, I know you do Why do you make me feel this way? Why do you always do this to me?