Hashu - My Demons lyrics

[verse 1] I'm downing bottles like f** my liver I cut my palms to paint a f**ing picture Then i let it all out to suffer quicker Tell my loved ones that I'm depressed I try to find god I'm only finding stress Always distant cause my minds a mess Down a bottle of these pills when its time to rest Like i died in my sleep and i came back Not many other people here can say that Believe me when i say that I didn't pray to god But he prayed back And I've seen hell I've talked to god I've had hope I've lost it all I tried to be an angle But turned demon when the munts had called [hook] They make these d** to take the pain away So thank the Dr. when they save the day Dr dr dr Thank you I no longer feel alive I no longer feel my mind And all the thoughts i hear inside Like thank you for numbing me Memories that f** with me Of a girl who's in love with me Are better with these d** in me So lets forget it all together Lets pretend we saw forever Let it end No no no f** that f** that Let it end No Not ever [verse 2] Nightmares on the daily And dreaming on the nightly I go to sleep And wonder why if theres anybody like me Thats why when i wake up I always wish i hadn't Cause id rather die happy in this place that I've imagined And its said that these things happen Acid tablets to see past the fact I might not f**ing last in rap If that happens ill blast a cap But i think i just like the pain Yea its a game Playing tic tac toe All by myself Across my veins