Hashu - Finale lyrics

Im haunted by these memories They just remind me No matter how much i say to myself They don't define me I'm looking at these lights And i hope they blind me I hope they take me far away To somewhere no one finds me That possibility is quite likely Cause theres only misery in my physique Depressed I just can't believe that i might be I'm trying to k** my demons But they look just like me I haven't laughed in a minute Im bashful They're thinking I'm an a**hole I get it But they don't understand What I'm feeling on the day to day I always either numb Or asking god to take the pain away I've lost all hope I don't think i can say its fair to have no faith Then just turn around and say a prayer Like "dear god i know I'm f**ed in the head Is that why whenever i pray You say nothing instead How come when i ask for love you put some s*uts in my bed? Is that why you never answer when I'm stuck in this mess?" The suffer and stress Cause thats really every day now Lost and never stay found Cause no one seems to stay round Momma said you'd answer when my mind was ineffective But trust me I've been calling I guess your lines been disconnected Or I dont know Maybe you just hit ignore Tell me what you're in it for Lets talk for just a minute more You could've k**ed me in the hospital The Dr. said i wouldn't make it Damn this seems impossible So tell me why you choose to let me live and walk away Just to give me darker days Man i don't get it Loss of faith Loss of faith Cause i don't think that god believes in me No i don't think that god believes in me (x3)