Tension flowing through my veins and I can feel it I want to cut it out so I can see it But that’s the way I always know, even now, this uncertainty soon will pa** Hours spent inside the room that got me sober Praying the dopamine would find me sooner But that’s the gash I had to sew On this road I just have to own where it goes Soft manipulating hot and cold Kept my family waiting long enough Careless and self centered ways I behaved stained our home I found a photograph my father took of someone I don’t know I don’t recognize Lovers, and everyone who fought for me to beat it How could I commit when I didn’t feel it? I wish that I could give you back stolen time Maybe in the end you’ll get mine I'd k** the light, when everyone was home I didn't want them to know where I was Alive at night I snuck around to be the very thing you tried preventing Maybe in the end I’ll give it back Maybe in the end you’ll get it back You’ll get it back Soft manipulating hot and cold Kept my family waiting long enough I don’t know… Careless and self-centered ways I behaved stained our home I found a photograph my brother took of someone I don’t know I don’t recognize anymore