Hady Abou Nader - If life is the poison so suicide is the cure lyrics

In my head I wish d**h I am feeling like I am a person so everybody hates me Because I am a piece of sh** And I am sick Of people that repeat that I am an idiot Well I am a human so I cry and I try I lie and I smile I love And I solve Many problems that many others can't I do my best But I know that I am not better than the rest And teachers puts all on me If anything bad Happens in cla** But now I am back With my rap I am the broken boy Who will not stop rapping I hide my tears behind a fake smile That is always on my face The story of my life hurts me And what is future ? Is it a stupid thing that means my destruction? Well in the future I may do suicide I hate myself like no one else does Friends or foes don't trust anyone they will all betray you one day But I don't care about my stupid life anymore You can shoot me in the head and k** me I am already dead Dead mentally But I wish that in two days I will also be dead physicly My heart that is broken Is aching me right now I don't have a question But I have got questions Why I can't be liked? Why I can"t be loved? Why everybody judge me like I am a bad person? Why they are wishing I die? Please give me the answers Everybody like to see me cry So I am not afraid of crying if the answers hurt me If I cry I am sure You will smile And will try To hide it And then you will come and tell me "stop crying" And then I will tell you "stop lying you are smiling You don't care about me If I die you will go and dance on my tomb can you prove me wrong" As I write this song Tell me that you hate me Look in my ugly face In my ugly eyes I will care But I will hide my tears And when I will go back home I will cry As I sit on my bed Wishing that my red blood get out of my body Because if this happens I will die So everybody Will be happy You know what? f** every b**h on this earth f** the f**ers f** the s**ers f** this earth f** the planets f** everything that is alive Of course there is some exeptions But there is too many b**hes alive And if this is what they want If this is what every b**h on this earth wants I have no problem of being k**ed No one likes me I cannot lie to myself cause if I could I would Have do it A long time ago I hate myself because I am a stupid boy That have been hated too many times My heart was broken Life is a b**h Who does nothing but hurts me They judge even thought they have never felt what I have felt They can all sue me but they are the cause of me I took a minute To think about my life And I have cried My life hurted me so much That if I think about it at night I can no longer sleep My heart is broken I am a victim of a k**er named life I am the prey of a thing named suicide If I find a gun What I will need is one bullet I will put the f**ing gun in my head,co*k it Die and go to hell I am suffering The hardest feeling is when you feel like you are not from this earth I feel this way Because I have been rejected by everybody I have lost my mind And I have sell my soul And now I can no longer get them back What I want is to escape from this f**ing earth In my mind there is suicidal thoughts You want to judge me Judge me But just know that you don't know what the f** I have been throught You bully me for fun I wish I die Not only because of that But because no one likes me Everybody hates me I am tired of being who I am I am tired of haters I am tired of being hurt I am tired of myself I am tired of living I am tired of life Because I am broke And I am a f**ing joke When I will die They will say that I was a good person for them But this is nothing but a lie Nothing is right for me Because I can't find the light You can no more say to me That you like me And if I can die right now I won't say no Because it is the best thing that can happen This is my friends wish This is my wish This is a world wish I am asking myself right now What is the poison? And what is the cure? I don't know but what I know is that I am: "hated,bullied,rejected,betrayed,damned,mentally k**ed,mentally sick,hurt,broke...." I have nothing to be proud of And certainly not love And come to think about it If life is the poison so suicide is the cure And I am sure of that