Gwyllion - Lost in a Dream lyrics

I saw a thing I could never believe A distant sight I would like to retrieve It is a vision my mind will set free If I could remember how it came to be The image is fading, it withers away I can't be sure that I'll take grasp some day Deep in my heart I know that's what I seek But somehow I wonder, to whom does it speak Memories lost in a nightmare of pain Images screaming you're going insane Never believed in it till it was gone It is as a dreamworld, the magic undone It never strayed my thoughts my soul's so weak What I despised most is now what I seek My heart still craving for that I once held Hopelessly longing for all this to end Hear you call my name Am I dreaming? It's always the same Though I know That I lost myself Tonight Maybe the truth shall reveal When I sleep Visions attack in my head And so I weep Calling the light from within It might be cruel Lately no vision's the same Whom do I fool All the lights might seem the same Though it's as they call my name Feel like something's watching me go down fall in a trap Seek the world out for a chance But it seems to miss the glance This is harder than I thought Can't you see what's on my mind All the visions fall behind Try to catch them but it's like I'm trying to escape All the anger that I gain Makes me yearn to be insane This is not my state of mind