Gutted - Defilement Of A Married Life lyrics

I've had a fight with my husband He gave me a lifelong experience He got home in the middle of the night He was intoxicated - totally drunk I was talking to him about our future When I got hits on my face Total lack of morality Living inside stupidity An animal instinct lived behind his eyes Which was forced on me through his arms Why have I married you? I asked myself lying on the ground Then I pa**ed out, my body collapsed Next scene in my mind: His voice calling my name Facing down in the anteroom My arms nailed to the floor He was standing by me, holding something huge You're gonna die tonight! The disillusion was more than pain inside me All my dream were shattered away Blood on my hands, tears in my eyes Empty thoughts in his head How could I escape from this nightmare Why does he enjoy it? Thinking... and then Terrible pain strikes my backbones He attacks me with a rolling pin He is disgusting, hate him, hate myself I've chosen this man, I can't believe it! He went tired, I pa**ed a out again Waking in the hospital - a real nightmare begins Now I'm just lying here This bed will be my prison - forever He took my life, my future Everything that once I had