Grieves - Breath Of Air lyrics

[Verse 1] As simple as I am I got a puzzle for a heart Laid it on the table in the living room And rummaged through the parts The child in me is running through the yard While the man that I'm supposed to be is searching for a breath in the cigar smoke chokin' Drying out my eyes like the desert wind Drunk, taking shots at the moon with an empty pen I got a feeling that once it gets to the end I'll be buried neck deep in this sh** with no friends, go figure Life's been a freak show Learn to hold a knife at a young age and bleed slow Following the keystrokes Leading to my words Is a trail most traveled by a part of me You would label disturbed But it works Living with the plague Marching to the beat of my bones getting thrown into the lake They sink heavy like a thought made of lead And fall slowly to the depths If I could find a better way to make you see what I've been thinking I would probably just paint a f**ing picture They say it's worth a thousand words [Hook] Hold on There's something in the basement Chained to the furnace Underneath the stairs So close I can taste it Climbing up the drain pipe Trying to get a breath of air Oh god The only way to face it Is gonna leave the whole world Thinking that I'm crazy So close I can taste it Trying to find a way to take away my breath of air [Verse 2] I carve it all into the clay Walking monument of my mistakes Living off the rain checks Written in the fray The artist in me wants to play While the person I'm supposed to be is trying to figure out if I'm okay A scapegoat with a flamethrower Burning up the tall gra** Growing like a tumor on his gravestone I got a feeling if the same old motherf**ing sh** keeps happening I'll be dead before this game's over Great, I'm in dark water and diving Trying to find peace in the deep I reside in It keeps finding a better way to remind me That anywhere I go it'll be right there behind me Fine with it, pressed to the page Leaking like a wide open cut from a thrust of the blade It falls heavy like a bus from a broken bridge And keeps me watching from the ridge If I could find a better way to make the jaws of it release me I would probably just bite my f**ing arm off They say it happens in the wild [Hook] [Bridge] I start shaking when it awakens inside of me They tried to tell me it was a panic but they lied to me Got me thinking I was fragile and incompetent And tried to build a road around that avalanche on top of me Failed, laying on a bed of rusty nails Trying to distribute the weight enough to balance out the scales I lost heaven the second my ship sailed But survived long enough to tell the tale [Hook]