Gray Matter - Chutes and Ladders lyrics

Just when I thought That my truth erased confusion That’s when I asked myself What's real and what's illusion I can't believe that when I close my eyes All I want will come to me so I’m gonna look inside myself And see what I don’t want to see I don’t know how things should be I don’t know what you want from me I can’t justify what you can’t see Cause you can’t see inside of me And I don’t want identity All I want’s consistency Just when I thought That my truth erased confusion That’s when I asked myself What's real and what's illusion They said life’s a game All full of chutes and ladders Then its not if I win But how I play that matters right I don’t know how this should be I don’t know what you want from me I can’t justify what you can’t see Cause you can’t see inside of me And I don’t want identity All I want’s consistency Open my eyes for the first time And make my own decisions Start feeling all I see And feel emotion revision And all above I just need some time Between me and my heart Between me and my mind Some time to get things straight Before I close my eyes and sead my fate