Glue - Winners Never Stop lyrics

My head rests on a pillow with two faces And so many memories I sleep with blankets that fight cold and heart ache at the same time I leave the window open so the night can see me play dead My eyes just shut and my wondering mind has been fed See the carpets been run from the constant pacing back and forth North of my dissapointment the bathroom mirror shattered with the force THe heat won't work and the bills are pilling quickly The cellphone's been shut off And that outside world is trying to find me I can't reach out the illusion is spread out I'm mostly locked in place Cause I'm a cliche now Refer me to my condition It's faceless The door is cracked into splinters My knuckles are torn Limiting my options to a new love are being reborn The lights are dim and all the usual shadows are different I hear the creaks in the floor they're from the demons coming to visit Books save me for a moment but they always have a last page I read the introduction 50 times and I hope for a change This sink is never full and the refrigerator is always empty The milk is sour I've an*lyzed everything from the first glance to being a coward The vanity used to put me to sleep but now it's lectures me on my problems I'm just trying to find a cold hear that blared at top volume This room reminds me of laughing So I just shut my eyes and go back to the nights when I was enlightened Burning the wick at both ends I knew something had to give Leaving fire damage on the walls is a mark of how we live It's like this: "What do you mean?" "I know what he means, come here, listen to this" I changed my rules to make it all so easy But you lost your chance to grow up and be your own escape Now I interpret every word to be a little different And why do I make promises that I know I can't keep Because honesty is more attractive THat's how I found out that winners never sleep Why do I make these promises I can't keep Because honesty is more attractive And winners don't sleep I guess I'm kinda thinking about my old girlfriend Sometimes when I get on stage I kinda think about her I'd be up here performing and I'd hear her laughing I kinda miss her I guess I kinda miss her (laughter) You think that's funny? Six months later I'm back to where I headed from Now my headaches gone And I take responsibility for all the ignoring that I did And I regret acting like an adult when I was a little kid Now I pa** out with the TV on at four o'clock in the morning Waking up every hour and writing down every dream is boring It seems that everyone I talk to experiences the same thing Being abandoned more of a world epidemic than suffering Now the questions have always been there But no one says the answers I depend on my instincts to alert me of danger But those same instincts formed an alliance with my emotions Letting me follow a pipe dream in a stream where I'm floating Next to a road less traveled Next to a burning house Sometimes I close my eyes and imagine myself on the couch Lost in the abyss of a comfortable Sunday afternoon Content to be feeding off of securities hidden doom Cause my excess is guarenteed no matter who likes this song It will never replace the fact that sometimes you don't belong Here in my bedroom play me next to the wall privileges Acting as if I'm character carrying my blue blanket mixes Into a faultless portrait and I wouldn't want to spoil it but if the scene comes together I'll be the first to admit That most painters are fiction writers just minus the words While most liars have bodes and speak with their curves See, that world wasn't meant for me and I'll never visit again But the memory resurfaces so I erase it now and then "You know I'm really up to hearing this I am onstage And it's my a** on here And I come out and I'm giving And I'm giving some more and I make a simple request"