I try in vain So hard to speak Choked on my life It's down my throat It used to be Stuck in my cheek At four a.m. Becomes a ghost As I run faster I can't imagine; I'm looking inside How could I stumble; I'm looking inside Back into the future I plan ahead To spend at last I jumped the gun I k**ed my life What came before Became my past What calms me most Is my fright As I crawl deeper I might imagine; I'm looking inside The walls around me; I'm looking inside Back into the future