Gamal - Venting Or Whatever lyrics

I seen my father in a coffin I wanted to start off blunt I guess im not tired of coughing Im tried of crawling im tired of parties Im tired of liars im tired of sorries Im tired of being me You see my life through this telescope And yeah im hella broke but Im just trynna write the realest sh** i ever wrote The realest sh** i ever spoke Im not scared of d**h The fear is too set in I just wanna become a bestfriend Without even leaving my room I gotta make it gotta take it Before im seeing a tomb Before i see my last june Bullets hit before hes 20 I dont know if the bullets are enemy or if they friendly If theyre mine or behind enemy lines Will she pull back If i lived inside i box would she do that? Her lipstick marks on my ribcage But how many dudes got the same prints Always thinking the same sh** Like pops before he made prince And ive been drinking its not cute Kissing these girls and they not you Im barely sorry Fairly gnarly Grinding its no excuse They questioning me Whatchu gonna do when your moms pa** When the bombs blast When the day comes When the rain is done And its time to go outside Honestly between you and i im thinking suicide I dont wanna live in that life with my mom in the crib that i reside If thats the end then im resign f** a cosign I dont need beef f** a bovine Im just living my life While i still can Cuz either way im screaming GET ME OUT OF THIS TV I wanna be a real boy I wanna laugh forreal i wanna see the real joy Cuz out here we fake laugh like we hand shake Every greeting Every meeting is deceiving There's sharks in the waters Looking at the TV I know those dudes I know the rules Say no to school Go out and learn mo'f**er | Fade | Cuz we can spit it and split it and cash a check but that dont count for sh** when your dead You gotta make the future today You gotta pave a lane and make a way For the kids after you the kids afterschool The kids who like weird sh** Its not weird their just early Stop *inaudible*