G FrSH - Close My Eyes lyrics

[Verse 1: G FrSH] I hide all this pain very well But never to the point that my mother can't tell Wanna be alone, I don't even wanna talk to myself Man I'll do it on my own, I don't need no help Cause I made it from the bottom where the sun don't shine Maybe I've had my share and I aimed too high One hand on the mic, one hand on the scales Between falling and flying, the lines so fine [Hook: Arrows Down] Wishing on a miracle Spinning on this merry-go-round, round Begging them to let me go They f** me fast and love me slow Flying low though I'm falling high Spending all my borrowed time, time, time I find myself and go inside Every time I close my eyes [Verse 2: G FrSH] Ain't seen my sisters smile in a while Said I've been too busy so I ain't been round But this morning I woke up in some girls house Got so high last night, still I ain't come down So caught up in myself that I can't escape While I'm paperchasing, all else can wait Said "f** love" so long, I forgot how to feel Once poured out my heart, now it's filled with space [Hook: Arrows Down] [Verse 3: G FrSH] Got like 10 missed calls from my baby mother Saying that I missed my daughter's parent's evening For that one split second, man, I felt like the other Dead beat dads who only plant their seeds But don't nurture theirs, but i water mine Mum raised the perfect son, I shine on mine I'm a little more distraught that at the time I was in the trap house, and I couldn't stop the grind But I've gotta pay school fees That are more than the average wage Man, I'm over just doing it for j**ellery Kicks and them models and them brand new plates Sitting with green on a mad estate Next day on the green, on a mad estate Smile for the cam, do my take Bag another brick, then back to the stage Now I'm back in a rave In the back of the rave Still out here fishing All the best catches say I'm too bait I need to find love before it's too late But I've seen too much, it's already too late Cos she's got a man, he ain't one of us So she don't gave a sh**, so she gave two f**s, oh well Me and the last girl ain't end so well, oh well My little cuz just got out the cell Tried to rob a man at 13 years old I asked him why, he said he don't even know He just wanted new kicks and a phone I couldn't help but feel at fault Cause he sees me in that FrSH sh**, see me in a Range Heard "#imballin" and "18K" But nah, f** that this is bigger than me Cuh at his age, man, I felt the same way If you ain't been broke then you won't ever know Man, I remember picking up my first O Gotta get dough, move that work Hearts on our sleeves so we wear T-shirts So yeah, we hurt But refuse to feel it When it's day by day There's no time for weakness Reality so real There's no room for dreaming Still I pray But I don't even know what the f** I believe in [Hook: Arrows Down]