First Aid Kit - To Live A Life lyrics

I wrote you a letter To make myself feel better To redeem some part of me I thought I had lost And we were lost cause Long before we fell apart 'Cause honey, I was too eager And you were too smart And I look for you In this empty room You're a phone call away I'm on the inner state And I been drinking cheap wine Just to pa** the time I'm falling behind And it doesn't matter Who you are to me I'm just like my mother We both love to run Chasing possible things Or unreachable dreams Lie awake in the night Thinking this can't be right But there is no other way To live life along I'm alone now Then suddenly we wait from the stream that we have made It's [?], once there Slowly face I'm raising in To nothing I [?] miles away I know it now From my own sake That I cannot stay