FatalOTB - Last Night I Dreamt That You Left, And I Couldn't Handle It lyrics

[Verse 1] I dreamt that you left, you said it's for the best Ion believe that but I'm on to the next I'm not over you I'm just tryna distract my mind Because If I don't I'm gonna lose my mind I might catch some bodies I might hang with these thotties Anything to keep me from hurting my body No suicide, don't wear a suit and tie There won't be no funeral Just don't scrutinize Ion really know what the f** to believe Because I thought we were as happy as could be There goes that n***a with one pull of a trigga His house was big, but his problems were bigger Money don't mean sh**, money ain't happiness As soon as you left, well so did my happiness I'm not depressed, I'm just f**ing stressed Okay I'm both, I'm a big f**in mess I got feelings but you act like I don't You say you gonna do it, but I know that you won't Just hang in there, but don't hang from a noose Don't tell lies, just exaggerate the truth I thought I could handle it, but I can't I thought I could love again but I can't Don't end it all, just get up from that fall You lookin so sad Best believe I'm more than mad Over his head ain't a hat it's a bag Take off the bag, man please don't do it You were having thoughts, but I already knew it I looked down wrists bloody, and the blade by my side It was just a dream so cut that out of your mind This is the aftermath, because you left I'm sitting here dying And you're onto the next No suicide, no bullet to the head But I'm feeling so dead, like a bullet hit my head Please just look past the sh** that I did Just look at all the sh** that I've rid Lets talk about it, lets find a solution Suicide won't fix sh**, it's not a solution My souls on fire, because it knows it's done wrong But let me show you, I know right, not just wrong I hate myself for everything I've done I hate myself for what I've become Tears running down my face as I realized I'm stumped On top of a cliff People yelling "don't jump"