i was a target and easy mark i was the victim of an a**hole patriarch not just your standard dichotomy i was a virgin without virginity i used to genderflex, i used to pray but it was useless i was such an easy prey under sedation at beck and call i was a teenage blow up love doll without an option, without free will i was eleven when i got put on the pill a well used fixture, a welcome mat a lonely joy division laying on my back always a good girl, always a blade i was a prostitute who wasn't getting paid our perfect little girl, we're both so proud of you you do everything that you're told, you speak when spoken to you make me so ashamed, you've always been a flirt you don't think of anyone else, you don't care who you hurt my little girl gives daddy so much pride i'm suicide i've just been resurrected i'm jesus christ and i've bled for all my sins i save myself from definite destruction i'm here and i will decide my life as suicide our perfect little girl how could you do that to me? you do everything that you're told six years of sodomy you make me so ashamed you're the one who should have gone i gave the best years of my life to you you left me all alone my little girl gives daddy so much pride i'm suicide god's illegitimate daughter i'm stigmata and i've bled for all your sins i save myself from a life of a martyr i'm here and i will not abide my life, i'm suicide she's suicide that names a little creepy she's suicide welcome to our tribe she's suicide does she really belong here? i'm suicide for life my life is suicide