Expire - Dig Deep lyrics

Woe is me I dig deep I'll never let myself be happy It's all just doomed from the start I truly want stability But I tear everything apart Don't have what I want Don't want what I got Never wanted much Never had a lot And I pray for the day When I can be content in my own skin No chances taken No chances given Help me to understand Just why I am the way I am I live in fear Afraid to fail Locked up inside my own jail I buit these walls, I'm trapped inside How much longer can I hide? Help me to understand Just why I am the way I am Help me to make it right Can't live in fear my whole life