Evoke - Beautiful Machine lyrics

I'm open minded but it doesn't seem to change a thing I'm being blinded by the things that I'm remembering I'm somehow beside myself the high I felt is wearing off I'm safe inside my shell it's better when I'm not with you I'm staying sober staring daggers deep into your head The game is over all the things I wish I could've said are Somehow irrelevant the past has come and gone again It's getting colder so I lock myself away from you Please, you don't know how it hurts me And I want to believe But I don't know what it means My beautiful machine I'm breaking promises I should've broken years ago I'm pushing shots into the blood of the ethereal I'm not sure if I'm still making sense I'm losing track of time I'll die of arrogance it's better when I'm not with you Please, you don't know how it hurts me And I want to believe But I don't know what it means My beautiful machine