Evil Needle - Phora- Despair(Bootleg Remix) lyrics

[1st Verse] I'm at a loss for words, i dont know what to say/ Same isn't the same, everything has changed/ Every seconds spent reflectin' on mistakes i made/ Self pitty's a shame, but shame on those who dont pitty themselves/ Bein' strong for too long is bad for your health/ Running in circles claiming i ain't/ Swearing on my life taking lies to my grave/ Right hand on a bible holdin' me liable for the pain that i've dealt/ Cause i give it a lot but i can't take it myself/ Conflictin' decisions with emotion and logic/ One fights the other, bothe unresponsive/ This in itself leads to overthinkin'/ Overthinkin' in itself just halts the progress/ [Hook] I don't know a lot but i know when it's cold/ Friends come and they go, yeah they come and they go/ Now i dont know a lot but i know how it feels/ To put trust in someone that you don't even know/ I don't know a lot but i know when it's cold/ Friends come and they go, yeah they come and they go/ Now i dont know a lot but i know how it feels/ To put trust in someone who wouldn't throw you a bone/ [2nd Verse] I don't know a lot but i know when its cold/ Cold shoulders in slow motion, emotions have froze/ I'm so over my own, reflection in the mirror/ Every second that i stare is like a blade to my throat/ Still runnin' in those circles, still thinkin' im close/ Closed off, im so lost, lost in my zone/ Zoned out, theres no doubt, the vacancies full/ Bench pressin' to invest in the weight that we pull/ To pawn it off on others with no way to know/ That friends come and they go, and they never come back/ Nobody really loves you, we can leave it at that/ I think back to '96, small blue house in a ghetto little town/ Barley any money in the bank account/ Parents wanted better, they did the best they could just to move us out/ Now im shinin' on em and they jealous as sh**/ I can see it on they faces when I'm driving my whip/ But they don't know the sh** i've been through or the places ive been/ But they don't know the sh** i've been through or the places ive been, cause/ [Hook] I don't know a lot but i know when it's cold/ Friends come and they go, yeah they come and they go/ Now i dont know a lot but i know how it feels/ To put trust in someone that you don't even know/ I don't know a lot but i know when it's cold/ Friends come and they go, yeah they come and they go/ Now i dont know a lot but i know how it feels/ To put trust in someone who wouldn't throw you a bone/