Everclear - 13 Years lyrics

Woke up sweating in the sun Sprawled across my big brother's grave Shaking and drunk with sleep I crawled to my feet and walked up into the shade Of a young elm tree that must have been planted since the last we came Vicki, my mom, and me, cleaned the dirt From the plaque that says his name Walking to my girlfriend's car Came back down on me Yeah, i guess i fell to my knees To keep from falling face-first into the dream The vision that had had me twisting out under the afternoon sky I didn't know it then But it was thirteen years to the day he died He held his hand in me Like brothers we walked Through the colorless world of an alcohol dream I talked for hours Trying the break through the silence That he held over me Then he started away, turned his head Keep it up so you can die like me Ever since my brother odied I've drifted all over from town to town to town Every place i go it's always the same I keep doing junk, i keep going down My mama got religion and my sisters gave up Man i just gave up too I just died inside Don't wanna die like george Everybody says there's things to see Everybody's pointing their fingers at me I woke up driving After another blackout from another bad drug I can't shake this hell that i made for myself For every other life i took See my sister's son walk the line i walked He's only sixteen If he don't learn from my mistakes He's gonna waste away He's gonna die like me