Eric "Ricky" Pariseau - Deerfield lyrics

[Verse 1] We about to enter Christmas Let's take a look at my wish list Maybe make it become a gift list Homegirl stack ones cause s** sells I want her to know I care bout her health We both need mental help I remember going through hell, starving myself Saving lunch money to get those OVO Jordan twelves All started when you said I want you to sit with me And talk to me like my father never did with me I sat beside you, ramble on while we sit in grief Forty ounce couldn't sort me out gotta be kidding me [Verse 2] Flashbacks to when I started wearing snapbacks And a backpack when my dad snapped back His friends attacked fast Quick to jump the gun with the clap back My dad sat crying inside, dying inside, flip to the b side And you'll see him cry, A side his face look dry B side streams don't subside, face looking like Niagra falls Hard feelings like viagra call Picked up the phone, I cry at the call Estatic, can't hear, too much static, make it disappear Like my dad screaming "Cheers!" Again and again, beer after beer I'm living in the end jumped with the fear Lost control can't steer There's a lot on my mind and it's grabbing me from behind Staring at comets wishing that you'd finally be mine Thought you were sublime, but like my father you let me down Life pa**ed you the crown And now it's your turn to make me frown Every piece to this town remind me of our time around Stay clammed up in Primos in the dark corner like an emo Watching you and your ego roam free like an American Eagle Staring at me, I'm just street gold, who could ever want that? Walk away and I respond fast, watching as you flaunt a** You were the one who taunt last, haven't seen you since Memories stay in remnants, every time I can, I reminisce On all the bliss that was given to me by life as a gift Sift through every moment looking for the right rift Vibes shine bright in the light during the day But at night the light dims and my brain decays Sipping deep down in this forty ounce wondering why you won't stay Demons want to come out to play and shout rays of profanity Taking away my humanity, gripping to all my fantasies That make the damage free, you were the only one who could manage me Never worked out cause you Sandwich beef Could never stand with me so you stood out like a hoodlem with his hood down [Verse 3] You said no before, wishing you would now Standing here with a shook vow and a broke valve Screaming so loud: "Ricky, please don't go now" You the d**h of me, that's how I'm going out Numbing pain with smoke I'm blowin' out There goes the candles, yeah Ricky, make a wish Put cake on a dish, I like having and eating my cake too I'm in shambles, dismantle and decypher the dish As you walk out of cumbies, I look and talk doubt What you want from me? I'm shook, I get up and shout [Verse 4] Intimidation is a b**h Loved you, it's temptation To hope for reinflation on my heart's deflation I'll never have salvation so I reach into the mason jar Grab the bud that's caged in, break it and start blazin Few more beers and I feel amazing, cans in my car Barely know what I'm saying, go by Circle K then Take a left, I'm on the high way, Ben called ain't say sh** Speed up, I love the rush, I just pa**ed two trucks and a bus About to combust, display anger, disgust on everything dicussed Turned snow into slush, voice box about to bust Patch of ice on this run then you hear something crush