Eric "Ricky" Pariseau - Bloodshot lyrics

[Verse 1] I kick the door off it's last door hinge to cop a bottle of captain morgan Let more and more in until my kidney's are drowning, I'm off to the morgue and I can't stop snorin', yet I'm still letting more in, pourin' after pourin' life is borin' Tryna drown out what is importent, Can't stop thinkin' of u, anxiety is soarin' I still convict myself, restrict myself, hit myself for thinkin' I did somethin' wrong I'm sick of myself, I wanna quit myself, click myself, but I just hit my bong I'm suffocating, but still hating, yet I'm tryna stay waiting for you to hear my song I'm skating, waiting to see if you're there while I'm baking, why's it take so long? Where's the instagram notifications? Come on, go back to the past, I'm waitin' I miss textin' u while blazin' You're amazin' but now I feel caged in My emotions set in motion, eyes close and I'm off to heaven, waitin' There I go, waitin' again like this is what I was meant to do, sent to do I was sent to you, to fix all angles of your perspective like a guardian angel But now my feelings are mangled and tangled, lost in forbbidden love There's a difference between love and lust, lust is when you just wanna bust Like a pinata, you know I gotcha, I see right through ya when I walk up to ya Pina collada, is what I'm sippin a lot of, screamin' boo ya, but I'm not happy without you (ugh) [Verse 2] Thinkin' of you while drinking is a hangover waiting to start syncing while sh** clinks in I'm a peasant, let the king in, my souls waiting to transform into what the king's slingin Badluck is what this brings in, board broke, no kingspin, I can't just turn, our memories burn Yet, I'm still dreamin' of you, screamin' for you, I'm needin' you and only you I'm startin' to feel lonely too, I can only be cheered up by you and only you I see the evil looks you bring that heat and cook up my attitude that make me mad at you Can't figure out if I'm goin' longitude or latitude Now I'm startin' to look like my dad…(sh*t! Oops…) Can't stop speakin', my lips loose Starin' at the candle, smash the bottle, go for a waddle, I asked for more than I could handle Startin' to dismantle, Goin' full throttle, watch it all blow, every last thing flew off the handle Too much baggage, pick up the phone all estatic, can't hear you cause too much static Ghosts in my attic, If you still care, then act it, I know you still care Please tell me if you still care Please tell me if you're still there, Please don't hang up, Please don't set off the flare My heart is ready to tear, music is ready to blare, bout to ba** off my ears Sitting in dark and despare, please spare me the time, all I can hear are wind chimes ALL I CAN HEAR IS THE CLOCK! TICK, TOCK TICK, TOCK, said the grandfather clock Goin' for a million walks in the second block Starin' at the time on the clock, how much time we got? As much time as God! But it feels like the universe ended, my texts, yeah they are sendin', I know you get the message My sh** deliver, so don't tell me it doesn't deliver, AH! ALL THIS STEAM WON'T SIMMER I'm about to stumble, all over the place like my heart crumbles, buzzin' like bumbles Muffled like mumbles, don't care cause that rum flow, Tired, I'm about to tumble You back to the old news, I'm goin' back to the old dude, I f**ing told you, I f**ing told you Give it some time and you won't answer the phone and I'll sit in the darkness alone Waiting for a text, but all I get is a hate letter from my ex, Devil gave me this hex My heart burst and bled, My heart hurts "Damn! I can't go without you" it said It's beating, beating, beating, repeating, repeating, repeating, repition gon' get me k**ed No, I can't f**ing sit still, 'bout to feel dead like Meek Mill, Pump, pump, pump It hits my chest like bump, bump, bump, I looked around for you for the last time And that's when my heart hit flat line… [Outro] I closed my eyes and saw the light Mama said it'd be alright…