Eric Gorodetsky - Hitting Back lyrics

[Verse 1] (Peering back at me through some) Shattered gla** on a patch of gra** near the pavement A portrait of basically more sh** than any poor kid should be faced with Or have to mask going ape sh** with a fake grin and a tank filled With laughing gas pumping through his veins just to sooth the pain of never knowing who to blame The damage they'd never know, from tears I never showed But for every one that ever flowed, an extra dose of Depakote By now those years are played out like a syndicated episode inside my head Still, I never managed to let 'em go [Hook: Andrew Galucki] Is it too late to fight? Did I give up the right? Am I too late to fight? Is it over? (over) I held it all inside my head, thought I was doing fine Never said what I should've said, not one damn time If they knew who I was today, yeah they'd be walking away The only thing left to say: this time I'm hittin' back [Verse 2] Bawl so hard, motherf**ers wanna fight me Tell me why don't they like me I brush sh** off, try to do the right thing like Spike Lee Yet they continue to strike No trench coat, just a clenched throat, they sent notes to try and spite me And I tried fitting in, shirts all fitted Nike, so let's switch roles Can you please remind me what your job is? Tell me what they pay you for While you tape record, trying to rap my head 'round how they Hate me more than the day before yesterday when you said if I Just came forward all'd be well, but they brought me hell Now I'm even more acquainted with the concrete smell Of the hallway floor when they fought me more And ignorance is blinding See, my teacher she's incapable of opening her eyelids To witness this shy kid in need of some guidance Inside is confusion, self-hatred, defiance State of mind divided like a country united Stripped of my youth and inflicted with violence While the rest of my cla** just sits there in silence Keep a tally in my notes, hit twenty I might just Take it upon myself to ensure I am lifeless If this is what life is, anything but priceless I can't afford to keep going on like this So load up your weapons, your missile devices Cause I don't wanna survive this Defective product of my environment Yeah, I don't want to survive this I don't know, why am I like this? [Hook] [Verse 3] Raised to ignore the taunts and gossip but (I'm hittin' back) Outside sweating, they're diggin' a grave, I'm driven with angst Another soul convinced she was just in the way, too sick of the pain Sick of feeling ashamed, sick of other kids always seem to mean what they say Overridden with hate, for some photos in her phone that she didn't erase And she couldn't escape her own social feed, words chipping away At her self-worth 'til she started feeling the same Mind reeling, her brain, fixed on fiction mistakes like an intricate stain Never finished sixth grade because she couldn't sustain Another difficult day living, instead she became victim And just in time for Thanksgiving It's a f**ing travesty tragedies keep happening so rapidly The impact that this has on me is surpa**ing capacity What do I have to be? A f**ing amba**ador? Cause school officials won't act until after a ma**acre? Actin' taciturn even after the ashes burn Makes it hard to face the music when your back is turned And I will not just sit back like a pa**enger And let a repeat of the past occur, I'm taking on a different path So if I ever see some young punk f**ing someone up, I'm hittin' back [Hook] [Outro]