Epidemic - In My Life lyrics

[Hook: Foreigner - I Want To Know What Love Is Sample] In my life, there's been heartache & pain I don't know, if I can face it again Can't stop now, I've traveled so far Can't stop now [Verse 1: Epidemic] Went on vacation, n***as rearranged my whole house Came back, feeling like a stranger in my own house Fade to black, like a candle that'll never blow out Maniac, for every page of rap I ever throw out & through out I could've sold a million records no doubt & sold out But now I'm on a different level, no route That could take away my art could ever really make me happy though I'm cold hearted, +departed+, +DiCaprio+ Cabriolet in the rain, I'm backing out I, +May weather+ the storm like Paquiao Until the day that I'm gone, I'm blacking out Black on black back against the wall, no backing out If you could only feel the pain that I felt You'd cry a f**in' river, I turned into Mike Phelps I'm going for the gold my n***a so why else Would I go through all of this myself, tell me [Hook] [Verse 2: Epidemic] I took a razor to my wrist, surprised that I don't bleed Got ice up in my veins, never gotten cold feet I've danced with the Devil, this was back in '03 Last chance, so I got these angels tatted on me & I can't ever love or have a matrimony Sweetie don't take it personal, that's what it's gon' be I just got it from my daddy is what my mammy told me Even if I made you happy, chances are you can't be Wherever you want to be, whatever you want in me I am never gonna be, this is my apology This the way it ought to be & I'm meant to be alone Only b**h I treated right was the one that did me wrong & it's driving me insane, I wish I could press rewind Want to +charge+ it to the game, but I know I'd get +declined+ & some things don't go away, no matter how much time So I live, every day, with the pain, in my life, & I swear [Hook] [Verse 3: Epidemic] I'll never know a bigger pain, than the day I lost a brother Started out one in the same & we were turned against each other I was never jealous of ya, I just wanted us to blow So I let you have the shine, at every time in every show Then you pushed me to the side & didn't want to share the glow & it took me by surprise I felt I had nowhere to go Then I went around the globe, & when I came back to the states It was all about you, now how am I in 2nd place? In this race, a disgrace that neither of us won We didn't even finish, but the damage was done You was acting like a star, you thought you were the sun & it hurt me in my heart, to see what you had become & I blame it on the d**, even though that you were high You knew what you were doing, I could see it in your eyes So the day you walked away, how could you act surprised That I didn't go too dawg, you had to realize that [Hook]