Enkay47 - In my head lyrics

If today was your last day And if this was your last breath Would you accept where you’ve gotten in life Or just be forgotten like past tense I feel like i’m on a bad stretch If i’m being honest i’m mad stressed I been looking for the answers I just wish i had the access Ever since i was a kid i knew that i was different Significant wasn’t significant I finished school and i got my certificate I learned to live with the sh*t that i’ve done And no i’ll never tell anybody right up Until the day i die and my body’s dried up and When i’m in the sky and i’m being judged By god or whatever, don’t know what the fu*k Is after my death Am i dramatic? i guess I deal with manic depression It’s automatic i’m mad Maybe it’s all in my head Maybe it’s not, but again I’ve been looking for myself In some places that i swear to god that i’ve been I just forgot 'em again It’s probably trauma again It’s honestly Maybe it’s all in my head I’m caught on narcotics again I’m telling my mom that i’ve been Fine and i’m doing okay And the music i’m making is working And she’s telling me i deserve it My family’s proud until they pull the curtain Right off of my body exposing the surface I know for certain That my life is going in circles and Here we go again I feel like i’ve been here before I let a lot of people that’ll hurt me just Walk in my home like it’s missing the door I haven’t been in this position before I’m rich but i’m poor I do whatever i want for a living But there’s a whole lotta sh*t i can’t afford If i couldn’t record then i’d blow out my brains on the floor (wait) I’ve gotta switch the mind state Who the fu*k are you to think that you define if i’m great If i create thoughts in my mind Then i make Everything you’re looking at right now How am i fake If i take Everything inside of my brain And put it on a plate right now with my steak Then i slayed all the bad thoughts in my way I’m the one that chooses the path that i take It’s all in my head It’s all in my head It’s all in my head Maybe it’s all in my It’s all in my head It’s all in my head It’s all in my Maybe it’s all in my head It’s all in my head It’s all in my head It’s all in my head Maybe it’s all in my head It’s all in my head It’s all in my head It’s all in my head Maybe it’s all in my head When the light is gone Chose my wrong And i went all in Couldn’t change my mind Blame my pride I'm still holding Onto wasted time Escape my mind I’m so cold inside When i close my eyes And i face inside I just know that i Am never going back to the way that i was Never going back to the way that i was It’s all in my head It’s all in my head It’s all in my head Maybe it’s all in my It’s all in my head It’s all in my head It’s all in my Maybe it’s all in my head It’s all in my head It’s all in my head Maybe it’s all in my head It’s all in my head It’s all in my head It’s all in my head