Elway - Spent So Long lyrics

Woke up today with my head busted open With filler places I left rusted shut My lips hug every tired bruise and broken From the weight of all I thought that I'd forgot I spent so long just learning how to get it along Pointing fingers at the sky my f*ck ups are my own And so tonight I'm destined to loathe all the things I've been And that's alright cause you can't win against the world So why pretend Right? Went out last night and drunk my bread and liquor I learned to treat my body like my mind I wish that I could tell her how I miss her And how her absence haunts me every single night It feels so wrong we live at home to all these songs Have I learned from all my mistakes? Am I f*cking up again? And so tonight I'm destined to loathe all the things I've been And that's alright cause you can't win against the world So why pretend You can't get those lessons and you just might learn one You just might have future if you could forget about your past