Elizabeth Barrett Browning - The Runaway Slave at Pilgrim's Point lyrics

I. I stand on the mark beside the shore Of the first white pilgrim's bended knee, Where exile turned to ancestor, And God was thanked for liberty. I have run through the night, my skin is as dark, I bend my knee down on this mark: I look on the sky and the sea. II. O pilgrim-souls, I speak to you! I see you come proud and slow From the land of the spirits pale as dew And round me and round me ye go. O pilgrims, I have gasped and run All night long from the whips of one Who in your names works sin and woe! III. And thus I thought that I would come And kneel here where ye knelt before, And feel your souls around me hum In undertone to the ocean's roar; And lift my black face, my black hand, Here, in your names, to curse this land Ye blessed in freedom's, evermore. IV. I am black, I am black, And yet God made me, they say: But if He did so, smiling back He must have cast his work away Under the feet of his white creatures, With a look of scorn, that the dusky features Might be trodden again to clay. V. And yet He has made dark things To be glad and merry as light: There's a little dark bird sits and sings, There's a dark stream ripples out of sight, And the dark frogs chant in the safe mora**, And the sweetest stars are made to pa** O'er the face of the darkest night. VI. But we who are dark, we are dark! Ah God, we have no stars! About our souls in care and cark Our blackness shuts like prison-bars: The poor souls crouch so far behind That never a comfort can they find By reaching through the prison-bars. VII. Indeed we live beneath the sky, That great smooth Hand of God stretched out On all His children fatherly, To save them from the dread and doubt Which would be if, from this low place, All opened straight up to His face Into the grand eternity. VIII. And still God's sunshine and His frost, They make us hot, they make us cold, As if we were not black and lost; And the beasts and birds, in wood and fold, Do fear and take us for very men: Could the whip-poor-will or the cat of the glen Look into my eyes and be bold? IX. I am black, I am black! But, once, I laughed in girlish glee, For one of my colour stood in the track Where the drivers drove, and looked at me, And tender and full was the look he gave— Could a slave look so at another slave?— I look at the sky and the sea. X. And from that hour our spirits grew As free as if unsold, unbought: Oh, strong enough, since we were two, To conquer the world, we thought. The drivers drove us day by day; We did not mind, we went one way, And no better a freedom sought. XI. In the sunny ground between the canes, He said "I love you" as he pa**ed; When the shingle-roof rang sharp with the rains, I heard how he vowed it fast: While others shook he smiled in the hut, As he carved me a bowl of the cocoa-nut Through the roar of the hurricanes. XII. I sang his name instead of a song, Over and over I sang his name, Upward and downward I drew it along My various notes,—the same, the same! I sang it low, that the slave-girls near Might never guess, from aught they could hear, It was only a name—a name. XIII. I look on the sky and the sea. We were two to love, and two to pray: Yes, two, O God, who cried to Thee, Though nothing didst Thou say! Coldly Thou sat'st behind the sun: And now I cry who am but one, Thou wilt not speak to-day. XIV. We were black, we were black, We had no claim to love and bliss, What marvel if each went to wrack? They wrung my cold hands out of his, They dragged him—where? I crawled to touch His blood's mark in the dust ... not much, Ye pilgrim-souls, though plain as this! XV. Wrong, followed by a deeper wrong! Mere grief's too good for such as I: So the white men brought the shame ere long To strangle the sob of my agony. They would not leave me for my dull Wet eyes!—it was too merciful To let me weep pure tears and die. XVI. I am black, I am black! I wore a child upon my breast, An amulet that hung too slack, And, in my unrest, could not rest: Thus we went moaning, child and mother, One to another, one to another, Until all ended for the best. XVII. For hark! I will tell you low, low, I am black, you see,— And the babe who lay on my bosom so, Was far too white, too white for me; As white as the ladies who scorned to pray Beside me at church but yesterday, Though my tears had washed a place for my knee. XVIII. My own, own child! I could not bear To look in his face, it was so white; I covered him up with a kerchief there, I covered his face in close and tight: And he moaned and struggled, as well might be, For the white child wanted his liberty— Ha, ha! he wanted the master-right. XIX. He moaned and beat with his head and feet, His little feet that never grew; He struck them out, as it was meet, Against my heart to break it through: I might have sung and made him mild, But I dared not sing to the white-faced child The only song I knew. XX. I pulled the kerchief very close: He could not see the sun, I swear, More, then, alive, than now he does From between the roots of the mango ... where? I know where. Close! A child and mother Do wrong to look at one another When one is black and one is fair. XXI. Why, in that single glance I had Of my child's face, ... I tell you all, I saw a look that made me mad! The master's look, that used to fall On my soul like his lash ... or worse! And so, to save it from my curse, I twisted it round in my shawl. XXII. And he moaned and trembled from foot to head, He shivered from head to foot; Till after a time, he lay instead Too suddenly still and mute. I felt, beside, a stiffening cold: I dared to lift up just a fold, As in lifting a leaf of the mango-fruit. XXIII. But my fruit ... ha, ha!—there, had been (I laugh to think on 't at this hour!) Your fine white angels (who have seen Nearest the secret of God's power) And plucked my fruit to make them wine, And s**ed the soul of that child of mine As the humming-bird s**s the soul of the flower. XXIV. Ha, ha, the trick of the angels white! They freed the white child's spirit so. I said not a word, but day and night I carried the body to and fro, And it lay on my heart like a stone, as chill. —The sun may shine out as much as he will: I am cold, though it happened a month ago. XXV. From the white man's house, and the black man's hut, I carried the little body on; The forest's arms did round us shut, And silence through the trees did run: They asked no question as I went, They stood too high for astonishment, They could see God sit on his throne. XXVI. My little body, kerchiefed fast, I bore it on through the forest, on; And when I felt it was tired at last, I scooped a hole beneath the moon: Through the forest-tops the angels far, With a white sharp finger from every star, Did point and mock at what was done. XXVII. Yet when it was all done aught,— Earth, 'twixt me and my baby, strewed,— All, changed to black earth,—nothing white,— A dark child in the dark!—ensued Some comfort, and my heart grew young; I sate down smiling there and sung The song I learnt in my maidenhood. XXVIII. And thus we two were reconciled, The white child and black mother, thus; For as I sang it soft and wild, The same song, more melodious, Rose from the grave whereon I sate It was the dead child singing that, To join the souls of both of us. XXIX. I look on the sea and the sky. Where the pilgrims' ships first anchored lay The free sun rideth gloriously, But the pilgrim-ghosts have slid away Through the earliest streaks of the morn: My face is black, but it glares with a scorn Which they dare not meet by day. XXX. Ha!—in their stead, their hunter sons! Ha, ha! they are on me—they hunt in a ring! Keep off! I brave you all at once, I throw off your eyes like snakes that sting! You have k**ed the black eagle at nest, I think: Did you ever stand still in your triumph, and shrink From the stroke of her wounded wing? XXXI. (Man, drop that stone you dared to lift!—) I wish you who stand there five abreast. Each, for his own wife's joy and gift, A little corpse as safely at rest As mine in the mangoes! Yes, but she May keep live babies on her knee, And sing the song she likes the best. XXXII. I am not mad: I am black. I see you staring in my face— I know you staring, shrinking back, Ye are born of the Washington-race, And this land is the free America, And this mark on my wrist—(I prove what I say) tied me up here to the flogging-place. XXXIII. You think I shrieked then? Not a sound! I hung, as a gourd hangs in the sun; I only cursed them all around As softly as I might have done My very own child: from these sands Up to the mountains, lift your hands, O slaves, and end what I begun! XXXIV. Whips, curses; these must answer those! For in this Union you have set Two kinds of men in adverse rows, Each loathing each; and all forget The seven wounds in Christ's body fair, While He sees gaping everywhere Our countless wounds that pay no debt. XXXV. Our wounds are different. Your white men Are, after all, not gods indeed, Nor able to make Christs again Do good with bleeding. We who bleed (Stand off!) we help not in our loss! We are too heavy for our cross, And fall and crush you and your seed. XXXVI. I fall, I swoon! I look at the sky. The clouds are breaking on my brain I am floated along, as if I should die Of liberty's exquisite pain. In the name of the white child waiting for me In the d**h-dark where we may kiss and agree, White men, I leave you all curse-free In my broken heart's disdain!