Efcey - Tears On The Pillow lyrics

(Hook) She said I wonder when it'll be my day 'Cause I'm not too far from breaking down All I've got are screams inside But somehow they come out in a smile And I'm wondering if I'll always feel this way, this way I've made alotta mistakes and all the sh** I cannot erase And I've been thinkin' if I drink I'll probably be more at stake This life isn't so great and I just tried to fluctuate But I'm so tired of all the bullsh** leading up to constant hate The love I never found and the fake friends who knocked me down Just made me stronger but it's what we would always expect in this small Town Don't you hate when you can not trust? when you give it all, and it's not Enough? But you had enough, and you're looking down, hating on what you become You fall you get back up and show them where you're truly from Pessimistic in all my strains optimistic I needa gain So realistic heavy pain and socialistic so called "friends" Tired of all these trends and I hope animosity could end I'm thinkin of an escape and a new life I gotta reshape All these critics could emulate but they know that I can demonstrate All the sh**, all the stress, all the lies and all the mess All the lies you're so careless and all these struggles on my chest (Hook) She said I wonder when it'll be my day 'Cause I'm not too far from breaking down All I've got are screams inside But somehow they come out in a smile And I'm wondering if I'll always feel this way, this way This doesn't usually happen when I'm lost in all attraction And my music and the sports is what I couldn't ever balance And I did try, but in honesty my apologies but it was a challenge Like a photo with no colors or a book without a caption Some they shook and some are crooks but all they look inaction No one knows my struggle or the sh** that makes distraction I'm living in a bubble and the suffering grows double And this life is so unpuzzled so give up or f**ing hustle Penetrating these hearts I hope one day you get my view And I lost a friend from cancer and I know he'll guide me through I've been vituperated and used, cheated, lied spitted and chewed But I manage to get up neglecting obsticles and feuds Clever intuition always wishing but you're only missing Tryna get it finished but these people on your business I will never hurt a women but I would be slapping b**hes Tryna overpa** these bridges causes madness when you're spitting (Hook) She said I wonder when it'll be my day 'Cause I'm not too far from breaking down All I've got are screams inside But somehow they come out in a smile And I'm wondering if I'll always feel this way, this way There's some things I don't plan to say keep it secret so no dismay Cause I've been Looking for brighter days but I keep on heading far astray Hating on my music when you ain't got sh** to play And these b**hes just betrayed me so I could fall again Cmon Efcey don't you give up, I know you're f**ing fed up And the rain can't last forever just be patient for a sunny weather Maybe you're right I'll take a break watch for the friends that'll be the Fake No one was there for me but it doesn't matter cause no one can relate I'm thinking I'm tripping, drinking and mixing imagine living in k**ings Popping a Xanax every time I feel I'm gettings those thoughts about Quitting Damn I gotta slow down, They hate it when I'm rapping fast They hate it when they're clapping hands for me and say I'm acting bad... I'm sayin' I've been tryna swallow sh** for a long time I wish I could get through all the drama and be just as fine I haven't kept sobriety I'm popping a variety I can't even sleep at night and having days without anxiety (Hook) She said I wonder when it'll be my day 'Cause I'm not too far from breaking down All I've got are screams inside But somehow they come out in a smile And I'm wondering if I'll always feel this way, this way