Eels - Nowadays lyrics

(Something's not right, I don't understand) Nowadays I keep to myself Everybody else can look some other way Things I say seem to get me into trouble That I've been through for too many days And trouble is a friend of mine I'd like to leave behind I like my friends more refined Things I lose Weighing on my heart Every time I start to think Maybe it's through A little lie Goes a long way when you can't say Quite for sure what's the truth The truth is something no one really Wants to hear you say Just how you doin and have a nice day Nowadays you go for a walk Better not stop and wave or say hello Just this song People will spit, give you sh** Just for looking at them And for walking too slow Slowly and methodically I'll lock the world away Haunted by my better days