Eels - I'm Going To Stop Pretending That I Didn't Break Y lyrics

I'm gonna tell you what you need to hear And I'm a little too late, by three or four years And it may not make much sense now that we are apart But I'm going to stop pretending that I didn't break your heart You see, I never thought enough of myself to realize That losing me could mean something like the tears in your eyes And I wanna tell you I'm sorry, but it's too late to start But I'm going to stop pretending that I didn't break your heart And it's Christmas Eve, years down the line Sittin' wishing I treated you better when you were mine And I have no way of knowing where you are But I'm going to stop pretending that I didn't break your heart I didn't mean to hurt you I didn't know what I was doing But I know what I have done