The end began so suddenly I was numb for misery Disease blighted my freedom Everyday I gaze same dot What I've done or what I've not My head is full of thoughts and pain Being upset everyday is agony I repay the price of my casual life Finally I realize How brief my life was If I'd vanish today Avoiding the truth, refusing the facts I know that I'll die with certainty Every time I close my eyes I fall within the silence I'm afraid of my pa**ing Silence