ED - Questioning Myself? lyrics

How can I be a let down when no one lifts me up? Why do I say I'm callous when I care so much? Why do cavernous realizations transpire from questions? Why do I abominate love when It hasn't been encountered? Why am I the that way I am? Did god scurry me or did he disallow me to be like the rest? Did the devil sprinkle a bit of his nefariousness in this pot? Will the reoccurring memories ever stop? How can a s**m and an egg create a person who contemplates d**h who had no say? Did genetics do this? Was it evolution? What the hell was it that made it so onerous to function? Was it the inconceivable pain that made me hit the breaking point? Why can't I be that little boy who fell asleep watching the horizon? If I found myself, where would I find it? Is it in my closet, my brain, my heart, the ditch, in the words I speak? Where do I go? Is this all one track with a dissolving trail? Why do I keep questioning myself? What happens if I walk out this door? Where will it lead? What do I do when someone is in need but said they never needed me? Do I let my curiosity k** this fragile cat? Do I notice them and not react? Where did I get my morals from? What is normal? What is reality if we all perceive differently? How can lobes and imbalances govern our ever step? How can someone be there for me when everyone left? Why did everything suddenly collapse? Why do I keep holding back? Why are throes sensed by healed scars? What is humanities origin? Was it from a virgin or an explosion? Was it aliens? Don't all those solutions sound stupid? How can I accept myself for who I am when I don't understand mankind? Why do truthful people lie? Why is everyone born with gifts while i was planted to be average? Who made me into this person? Was it religion, television, or what I witnessed from my own vision? Is there really lightness, darkness, cold, and heat or is there an absence of one? What's the purpose in growing if we end up under the soil? Do our bodies stay on earth while our souls ascend and descend? Who makes the decision on your position in the limbo? Why is every question answered with yes and no? Why do I think so much? Why am I afraid to enter this cave? Why am I the one trying to save when I'm the one that needs saving? Why do dreams seem realistic but when doubt intervenes it's gone? What is love? Is it two people linking or two bodies combining? Why am I so fed up? Are truth and accuracy the same? Are all the resources abundant? Why do we sit and complain? Why don't we retaliate? Why do we preach about serenity and equality when we surmise and disdain? Will technology get so advanced to the point where it becomes another joint in our body? How can depression be suppressed with tests? How can the people who cry wolf be saved if we ostracize every cry? What makes us unalike? What is inside your mind? Why do I think so much? Why am I afraid to enter this cave? Why am I the one trying to save when I'm the one that needs saving? Why do dreams seem realistic but when doubt intervenes it's gone? What is love? Is it two people linking or two bodies combining? If someone has the questions to life who has the answers? If someone has the answers then how did they get to the conclusions? How can I? Who? What? Where? Why? What If? Is this? Can someone give an explanation?!?! Why do these questions keep popping up? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why me?