E.V. Rose - Grow Up lyrics

[INTRO] Looking back, is this who I imagined I'd be at 25? Alone, nobody by my side Contemplating the past moments of my life Wondering what was said, the regrets What I did, was it wrong was it right? sh** I don't know but [VERSE 1] I must've been like five First time girls thought I was fly I knew I was a pimp back then Didn't even need no ride My confidence sky high The world it was mine So what's changed that me's a stranger Now I look through the lens that love's a bunch of parallels And they all lead to failure My parents tried to sew it back together but they ain't no tailors They split see ya later like sailors My inner state a**ociates love with hate and danger This the remainder I can blame ya but I won't You both loved me so I'd grow This rose blooms even though it's all doom and gloom I don't need no sun, to know my seeds grow best while they're under the moon [INTERLUDE] I remember like in first grade I really liked this girl It was Valentine's Day and I made her like a construction paper heart shaped valentine She was the only girl I gave a Valentine to I didn't know any of the like traditions that you're supposed to just hand them out to everyone and Valentine's Day wasn't really a professing of your love to someone specific I guess the memo I missed it Anyway, f** it, Samantha if you're listening [VERSE 2] Sammy was my first crush Now I thirst for this new b**h Grammy She won't give it up that easy, she tease me I feel like she can't stand me I'm searching for the perfect gift sh** does it exist maybe add a guitar riff My cousin told me (let her go) Easier said than done when you've got none to hold on to you know That's my problem, striving for perfection in a world where true beauty's reflected in one's ability to detect the undetected My imperfections are what set me apart from the rest of us Still learning this lesson And if I snap on you in tension It was never my intention I'm merely trying to gain attention I'm destined, a milli I'm so invested My knowledge, I've k**ed so many with that weapon I should've been detained and arrested I can't be contained my heart's in it Cardiac arrested I'm never resting I'm so restless I'm wrestling with these thoughts gotta pin em and lock em inside this box Throw away the key forget about all this fake sh** called reality I'm searching for the perfect hit sh** does it exist? Ayo f** this sh**, roll me up something [OUTRO]