Dystopia - Self Defeating Prophecy lyrics

endless voices shattered thoughts that cloud my head sleepless nights of agony wretched and twitching in a pool of sweat searching for the words to say babble spills out of my mouth starring into space i didnt hear what you said i wish i could explain whats wrong with me why cant i think straight im lost because i think to much about... misery of life no esteem from proding eyes my confidence mistakes scarred to sleep or stay awake lifetimes pa** in a blink of an eye i am dumbf**ed all my pride s**ed i fight to gain control of what the fututre holds but im f**ing lost because i think to much about misery of life no esteem from proding eyes my confidence mistakes scarred to sleep or stay awake lifetimes pa** in a blink of an eye i ambumbf**ed all my pride s**ed nails dig into my head tossing and turning in my bed biting my lips blood stained mouth need something more to calm me down will i end up dead or can i digest it all this sh** im fed endured for so long i am suprised that ive made it this far in my lifetime i watch people waste their lives away it makes me sick to think i could end up like them but i wont