Drapht - Oikaphobia lyrics

I got motherf**in' brain fog, die off, internal kibosh Tired of al the violent pirate like inner dialog Loud as a lions roar Some days I feel I follow in footsteps of a dinosaur And ending it, cause there's venom in my bloodstream Anger is disgusting And I mask this pain with the food, booze and f**ing these floozies A cry for help that got lost up in the acoustics Man, f** music f** social dude, took the easier route Literally the easier root, she was Eve with the fruit Trusting the snake instead of seeing our truth now Like owl, like who's using who now Had the broom out, sweep it under the rug Full moon was out. Acting like big brother And f**ing with my emotions and now they say I chose this? Cross between king cobra and blow fish Blowing up from rosacia, she spitting venom, not coping White as a ghost of the christmas past And I'm still out in the dark in the rain Went from house, to house, to house To house, I couldn't go inside Scared what I might find And so I Walked around, around, around, around From dumpster to dive I couldn't go inside My oikophobia See every blessing ignored becomes a curse man Feel like the worst version of myself Every time I drink another San Miguel I sink like a hermit crab in my shell, I think with my genitals Used to be a gentleman General type of diligence, applauded for k**ing them But this was way before I knew the force Of my thoughts and the limitless experience, the brilliance Was inside, but I was stunted By confronted fear an anaconda around my windpipe I can't speak, thinking I was broken Unable to say I love you, frozen by the emotion man Was left unspoken For like 21 years, before then certain friends called me queer But those friends ended up addicted to gear See that's a world of fear for you No one to say I'm here for you No one to lend an ear for you And tell you you're imperial No, so I Went from house, to house, to house To house, I couldn't go inside Scared what I might find And so I Walked around, around, around, around From dumpster to dive I couldn't go inside My oikophobia