DP - Fluorescent lyrics

This the genesis to my story/ I guess it's time to give the ba*tards the glory like Maury/ I take the stage walking, like my foot alone is 4'3/ f** this attention my momma should've just aborted me/ Or auctioned me off as an orphan or something/ Instead I morphed into this adoring child with a future thats horrid/ Im talking to the lord with the phone off the hook/ Getting voicemails from n***as endorsing my downfall and b**hes feelings that got mistook/ Thoughts that wander and I ponder in my subconsciousness got me conscience to the fact that this life I'm not fond of it/ It got me ready to down a fifth/ Of Captain Morgan....Until my visions distorted/ Until I start to react on my thoughts/ And ill start by throwing 50 darts at that harlot's heart/ Why did I even start?/ That b**h don't even answer my calls/ Thats cool i'll strangle her til she resembles a KAWS doll/ It was my fault HOOK: The f** you know about living when you ain't lived as nothing?/ Had your own damn mother even call you nothing/ Do you know that life that im talking bout/ My n***a do you know that life? The f**'s the reason for living when you can't live from something/ Have you ever even contemplated k**ing loved one?/ Do you live that life that im talking bout/ My n***a do you live that life?