DopantBeats - Dear Father lyrics

(Verse 1) This is my credence gotta leave a candle burning in the window every night, alright Cause I'm hoping if you need to find your way back home you can use it as your guiding light I can recall the day, the smell, the sights It was dusk, but it seemed like the dawn of a new life Only new wasn't better, it was lesser, and it felt like I'd been gutted by a dull knife Sitting on a soaking wet lawn with my sister and my mom as I lost my grip on this delicate, fleeting life Friends and family in and out of St. John's, four hours, five to nine Hope was a live, but sometimes hope doesn't fix broken And pops was too broken to be fixed this time He really slipped this time Shatter bones, it was off to the other side On the heels of a flatline I felt my heart beat like that for the last time And I'll never know if I could've stopped you from taking that Goddamned final ride And it felt as if someone cracked my ribs Opened up my chest and attached a sieve Then drained what was left of the life and the blood that you helped give (Hook) Eyes wide open for illusions of apparitions We all look for the ghosts of those we're missing Hoping we can reconnect by bending all the dimensions And breaking the barriers separating our systems (Verse 2) It's been four years and in four more years I'll still be thinking of those former years Even though the well has dried up and there's no more tears The void remains a hole that howls when the frigid wind blows But your legacy is like a flame that only grows hotter than the coals burning right beneath my soles Keeps me on my feet, it keeps the boom in my heartbeat Motivation to move past defeat To keep fighting for every worthy cause in this world that I truly believe in You're the one who taught me how to be a man How to care and provide, how to love and to fight And I swear I'll do every single thing I can to make sure you'll always be proud of who I am Dear father this is my thank you Dear father this is my breakthrough Dear father I don't know where you are, but I hope you see the great things that I'll do In my heart, in your guidance I will trust I may falter many times, but I'll never be a bust I really can't say it enough Thank you once again for my life and your love