I was always a loner because I think for myself You never accepted me for me but why did you pretend Why should I speak when no one ever listens to me Inside I die misery my only friend Why Why Why can't I be me Why Why Smothered from reality Scream Scream Someone listen to me Scream Scream Pay attention to me I will be what you want me to be I will think what you want me to think My reason for being only my parents to please I'm not the perfect child you made me out to be My problems my imperfections you never wanted to see Why Why Why can't I be me Why Why Smothered from reality Scream Scream Someone listen to me Scream Scream Pay attention to me Dear Mom and Dad, I write this letter telling you I am now free. It was your lack of Love and attention is what k**ed Me. So don't blame some heavy metal Record to cover your own neglect. Your perfect picture turned fatal, Portrait not what you've come to expect Each time I squeeze the trigger the pain slowly subsides Put the gun to my own head now I too must die Die Die Dying to be me Why Why Smothered from reality Scream Scream Someone listen to me Scream Scream Pay attention to me Eighteen years I've hurt in silence and now they ask why Why did he snap Why did he k** He was always the perfect child Live your life through me and telling me how to live Sheltered me from reality did anyone care how I felt Five o'clock on the evening news child goes on a k**ing spree Now I have your full attention Now you'll listen to me Why Why Why can't I be me Why Why Smothered from reality Scream Scream Someone listen to me Scream Scream Pay attention to me