Cubbiebear - Ink lyrics

[verse] This is my autumn, this is my introduction to winter This is my holiday juggle of morals to face paint a sinner This is my battle of beautiful struggles, and card up the sleeve "I love you"s An earthquake-jenga-head-f**, making cuddling so f**ing uncomfortable This is a missed breath from a misled kiss meant to fake emotions belong My insecurity bu*ton that helps me pretend nothing's wrong Hiding painting's reflections, hidings affections to fight them in And convince you to plant the seed of a flower that wouldn't grow in my environment I just wanted to feel normal, important, warm I wanted to feel cozy when it rained instead of depressed by a storm Wanted a hand to hold when my heart skips, maybe worth one tear in your eye I just wanted one person to love me so I wouldn't be so afraid to die So when I sleep I rest, not a psyche to f** But a comfort to k** anxiety so I can swallow without it getting stuck I just wanted to breathe so I pretended to be Another reason you'll never learn to trust, or forgive me [hook] Breathe, just remember to breathe... I just wanted to breathe, you ever forget to breathe? I forget to breathe, I forget to breathe, I forget to... [verse] This is the insecurity I choose to live in This is the compulsive life I choose to obsess over whether forgiven My anxiety forces lying sprees to cover up who I am 'Cause I don't lie to others, just myself, I don't feel like a real man I got youth problems, I'm stubborn, I try to fit in other people's molds To the point I can't be myself and every love I've felt feels old It's hard 'cause everyone's numb -they built walls up to put their back on them They s** virginity to pledge youth, I got hair on my face I don't know how it happened But I loved you, all of you, everyone I touched I fall for nothing, left with nothing just to believe in your trust I loved you, I loved you, I loved a stranger and a player A forgetful f** pecking at danger, at danger at... You will never be it, you will, no, no, no... I will not be another you can k** it, so k** it and let go You wanna kick me while I'm down, stand on my back and be proud Well who's the monster now, b**h? Who's the monster now? [hook] Breathe, just remember to breathe.. I just want to breathe, I just wanted to breath..You ever forget to breath? I forget to breathe, I forget to breathe, I forget to breathe, I forgot to... ...Breathe I forget to breathe, I forgot to breathe [verse] No more, no more, no more, no more Every breath is worthless, it means nothing anymore Chop me down, go ahead I see right through I wasted tears, I wasted innocence on you I remember, I remember, I remember yesterday I remember, I remember, I remember you would say Forgive me, forgive me, forgive me it's too late Forgive me, forgive me, forgive me it's too late- -for bu*terflies, they flew away when you trapped them with a kiss Why would you pluck the thorns from beauty and leave nothing to protect with This is ridiculous, it's disgust or mistrust, maybe cupid missed us Or the arrow hit you so sharply the pain makes you pissed off You can break for your fake piece, an artificial whole You can't erase the bruises on your neck from them ten foot poles This is my autumn, my life, my turn, my space we... bu*ter me up for love, black black black heart baby [hook] Breathe, just remember to breathe I just want to breathe I forget to breathe, I forgot to breathe I forgot to breathe, I forgot to breathe, I forgot to breathe I forgot to ... Breathe I forgot to breathe, I forgot to breathe [verse] Who's the monster now, who's the monster now? Who's the monster now, who's the monster now? Who's the monster now, who's the monster now? Who's the monster now, who's the monster now? You can't touch me, I could care less about your love I grew on strength all cause you couldn't fathom, strictly you picked on what I was And built up, phony fake voice tone and all crazy "Forgive me, forgive me" black heart baby Don't please me, you're see-through I'll break free, I'll break you No more mocking and blocking mental pictures, pretending you're innocent No more trusting stupid f**s, my arms are closed, you're never forgiven [hook] Breathe, I forgot to breathe, I just want to breathe I forget to breathe, who the f** forgets to breathe? I forgot to breathe, you made me forget to breathe Made me forget to breathe, made me forget to breathe How do you forget to breathe? I forgot to breathe, I forgot to breathe You made me forget to breathe, I forgot to breathe I forgot to breathe, I forgot to breathe I forgot to... breathe, I forgot to... breathe I forgot to breathe...