Crosby - Balcony lyrics

[Verse 1] False bravado scattered through my verses and sh** Gonna be Flowing til the hearse is my whip That may be sooner than later if this don't turn into paper Cause I been working and sh** just want a cover on fader and an apartment away from all of the pain and the haters just me and my lady and when I'm 30 a baby Don't even wanna be rich just wanna spread what I'm laying You know what I'm sayin? Been from doctor to doctor The depression is worsening don't feel like a person just a shell of a serpent Insomniac to the T, need Valium to sleep, that speaks volumes to me Heart callus we pumping out no emotions nowadays that's where the fallacy be On the balcony geeked Off four loko and keef Feeling bad for my lady she more deserving then me But we in this forever the only person to me Apologize for the darkness this ain't supposed to be me But this is Braxton speaking Crosby just a facade I hide behind when I'm weakened I just lay in my bed faded vibing to weeknd Let the sorrow just deepen [Verse 2] To keep it a hundred I been smoking 100s Menthols to be exact, they keeping me intact because lately I ain't been thinking straight just lost a friend today Not in body but spirit, all of her laughs I can hear em But as the bottle got clearer, We got further and nearer You don't get it but she will if she hear it I miss my girl on the daily wait till she heading to Bama, I can't take it It's crazy like why did God even make me Unmotivated and lazy Conversations with mama and she can tell that I'm faded Final exam as I speak, ain't even going to take it If I'm in public I speak, I'll probably smile but I fake it cause in reality I wanna throw myself in the street but then I think about momma and Aimee, they can't do it without me So much weight on my shoulders and there's people that doubt me Wanna prove em wrong but Im defeated on this song Ex said I'd find happiness I did but I didn't Cause when my girl ain't around reality becomes vivid and when I look in the mirror all I sees a statistic Another n***a who wasted all of the chances he's given Had the world in my hands now I'm a slave to the b**h Just hope that harnett county save me a ditch. I'm gone