Cracker The Honky - The Heart of The City lyrics

Coming from the city of the living pen The kids wanna rap but the rappers wanna be kids again Only 22 so my life was at a bitter end, bit'a stress gems What you waiting for bill it then? Feeling never rested as the beast breathes Watching lying politicians on the TV Blunt smoke got a cracker munching on these sweeties Acting like my dad never got his diabetes And sorry dad but money rarely see's me But people want to greet me and ask me for my CD It's a freebie but dad they really need me Appreciation for my art means more to me than greed see... Alot of girls want to see me dead But almost double that want to sleep in my bed Love turned to lust Lust turned to f** Do I f** her cos I love her Or Do I love her cos we f**? Damn, that's an issue that I rarely touch Maybe I hate that I love her cos she ain't there as much It felt like a story, maybe I didn't care enough But when I looked close I could always see that fairy dust But listen to these lyrics, cos I ain't gonna tell 'em twice Underground rapper, my evolution won't be televised Looking up thinking I won't ever reach the heaven skies Cos I stare at my girl but all I see's my ex's eyes But wait, let me emphasize, if you only think you got wings You ain't meant to fly People act pally but their Facebook is telling lies Where was you when I was depressed? you ain't no friend of mine We go out how we lived when our life is done I learnt that from watching smokers and Ryan Dunn Run towards the sun cos my time is just declining bruv' Feeling like Will Sallaces mum when her time was up Recurring dreams of if my daughter lived Can't tell you how many times I've thought of it I tell you now the worst thing about abortion is After it she told me I was the one who was forcing it So I'm high up with new writtens I'm high by the time that you listen I'm high up in the booth spitting' Is that the weed or the music? Fly to a new distance, I'm crying but who isn't? I'm writing with new scriptures, I'm flying with new vision Damn, I only tell you how it is So it's only right I only mention how I live My rooms messed up just like my intentions for a b**h Wow that's so much deeper than you think it is Exhale through the same pen that his ink is in Sober mind now so the truth is slowly sinking in That I can't really cope unless I've had a flipping drink So back at JD, I'm having day dreams Thinking of the past when I could have had a baby.. I told my ex that it hadn't really phased me But I wish that I could go back Lord take me Wishful thinking got you thinking that I'm rapping weird So speak of the devil and he shall appear They tell me be thankful they tell me show the man in here But really and truly I'm just thankful to be standing here