Coral Bones - Youthemism lyrics

I won't fall asleep for fear of a creeping nightmare A recurring dream where I'm no longer a child And while I'm awake my heart stays wrapped in laughter Like a winter's day kept out with gloves and coats I want a life to call my own No more learning through palindromes I'd take the stars if they only shone I'll meet my makeshift family Beneath the shade of that willow tree And kick my sorrows as they leave In dreaming I see the dust pile up on unused toys While my skeleton grows and my thoughts run cohesive and poised But wandering calls, and my eyes will steadily darken The chattering walls will keep me company But night, she is persistent And the slowest times find me asleep My dreams have grown so consistent That this half-life spreads like lightning on the water And the freshest days will never keep I want a life to call my own No more learning through palindromes I'd take the stars if they only shone I'll meet my makeshift family Beneath the shade of that willow tree They'll keep me out of that creeping dream That keeps my child away from me Wake me up so that I can breathe